I have been staying up way too late the past few weeks. Making me fogging, cranky and less creative than normal. This week, determined to get back on track, I started to hit the sack a little earlier. I am still a little tired but it totally helped. I have also been trying to be supportive wife and getting up with J in the mornings … ugh it is so early! Need more sleep!

My body is so sore today. I ache everywhere. I also ran the farthest ever last night. I went out for my regular run, I was about to turn back at my spot when I decided to see if I could go further, go beyond myself. It was amazing. Then I got lost. A little scared. I kept running, through the woods, hoping I would see something familiar, a glimmer of hope … finally I spotted the high school and knew where I was. I am so comfortable in this city it is easy to forget that I am still new here! I ran a total of 6 km (2 more than I normally do) in 40 minutes … I guess I need a new goal, although I still have to repeat last nights record breaker.

There are times I get so discouraged. I have lost ten pounds. In FOUR months. ugh. I know it is just a number, blah blah blah … J keeps trying to convince me that it looks like I have lost a lot more. My body is composed so differently now than before I started running. I want more. I want my weight in the healthy range. I do not want winter to come and slow me down. My clothes are falling off, and yet I do not want to buy more till I am smaller.

Oh and I am NOT pregnant. Nor have we made an offer on a house (although we saw the COOLEST house ever today … it is priced a little out of our reach .. boo hoo) … I will give more details once I have them, promise.

It is a long weekend …. we have absolutely no plans whatsoever. How about you? Grand, wonderous plans for the weekend?

Becca is loving her preschool aquatics summer camp! I had regrets signing her up the last week of summer, thinking we were going to miss out on our last chances at the beach this year. Turns out the weather is wet, cold and blustery all this week, so no loss.

It always amazes me how secure and content Becca is. She was my little clingy monkey once upon a time. Now she barely looks up as I am frantically waving bye and blowing kisses. Mind you her cute and cuddly brother is still clinging like a python. Hopefully he too will gain that inner balance and confidence when he is ready. We are going to attend MOPS again this year, maybe Ethan will find his confidence there. I am amazed at what one year can bring …. They were so tiny!

As I trudged through the wind and rain four times yesterday morning, I grumbled and moaned, despising living in an apartment just a little more than normal. Sure I have less to clean (more to keep organized due to lack of space), and less responsibility with no yard and such. However instead I have to navigate to the fourth floor of the building, with children, groceries, my sanity. We have a really lovely apartment in a building that smells of smoke and dampness (not always but enough to annoy the wanna-be house dweller ya know?)

I had an amazing run the other night. I went farther than ever and felt amazing. I realized that my sluggish runs as of late were due to running with emotional baggage, rather than running free. Who knew the weight of my heart could slow me down so much? I had to take down the Nike+ Plugin. My amazing Web Hosts at Laughing Squid caught that the plugin was erroring and sending my information for anyone (any geek) to see and use for evil. If you use the plugin, be aware that is a possibility.

I have some exciting news I can hardly wait to share with you … but I am going to wait just a little longer I know I am such a tease!

How do you build confidence in your child(ren)? Or yourself?

Have fun with more Wordless Wednesday.

We had a fab time at the lake. Although we totally forgot the amazing lunch I had packed in the fridge, so I cruised back to town to pick it up. J thoroughly enjoyed seeing the kids in the water & sand. I am so bummed that it was probably our last trip to the beach this season! I took a ton of pictures that made their way to Flickr.

Over the weekend my head was intense and I slept more than I have since Ethan was an infant! I felt awful, even missed my Saturday run … grrr. I slept most of Sunday too (although I headed out for a short run afterward).

I now have my runs posted in my sidebar. When I purchased my running shoes, J spoiled me and bought the Nike+ to track my progress and give me extra incentive. Knowing the pace and kilometres so makes a difference! I am running 4k (with a 3k run I have when feeling tired), but I want to work up to 5k eventually. It would be nice to get to 5k before the snow falls, but I can only go as fast as my body will allow.

Becca is bursting with excitement that she will be going to Kiddie Aquatics Morning Camp this week. It starts today. I am all worried and Mother Bear like, she is just happy to play with some kids. Ethan and I will hang out and be able to spend a little one on one time.

The last week of summer … wow … Any plans for the upcoming long weekend? How do you say good bye to summer?

Phew … Looking for a house is exhausting! It is also so much fun. The kids, J & I looked at different houses all morning with our amazing Realtor. None of them were just right. There is the almost right house, but it almost feels like we are trying to make it right, rather than it just being right. So I think we are going to let it go. I am a little shocked how emotional this process is. I cried yesterday afternoon, not because there wasn’t a home that we could afford, rather just to let out some of the emotional buildup. So our search will continue, in the meantime we will be trying to ensure we are completely ready financially and emotionally. It wouldn’t hurt to winter in the apartment with oil prices as they are

Next week J will be busy preparing for fall classes. Becca will be in a morning Preschool Aquatics camp, so Ethan and I are going to chill out and enjoy the last week of August. Everyone keeps telling me that Autumn is long, cozy and beautiful here, so I am looking forward to experiencing it.

Today however, we are taking J to the lake so he can witness our children at the beach. The weather this week was not being very beach friendly, however today is looking fine. So we are going to escape from the everyday and head out to the fresh air, sand and water. Since J will be with me I will finally be able to take my camera and take some pictures!!!!! I am so excited!!!

What are you plans for the weekend?