I bet you thought I got lost at that Wool Festival. It was great. The rest of Thanksgiving weekend was good too. We got a ton of packing and organizing done on Sunday. Then on Monday, J went to the lab while the kids and I ran off to Santa Fe.
We spent the day with another mom and her kids, shopping in the downtown Plaza. I so wanted a New Mexican made bracelet and the Plaza is the place to find such a treasure. I found the perfect piece for me, as well as some cute presents for others.
For the first time since starting blogging three years ago, I find myself struggling to blog. I am struggling with creativity and with time. I am tapped out by the end of the day and rather than this be a rejuvenating feat, at the moment it feels like yet another thing to do. I hate that it feels that way. I have been dealing with a full range of emotions on so many different things. Some of you will pick up on it in some comments that I am leaving. Sorry for the rants. The last 6 months have been … wow … great, exhausting, sad, terrifying, lonesome, stressful, full of joy … wow.
I am ready to just enjoy life again. I have not truly enjoyed life since leaving California. I am trying. I have lost over 20 pounds, injured my foot, healed my foot, started swimming again, knitted, dyed, read, cried …yet happiness is this thing I cannot seem to achieve. I want to be happy. I should be happy. I am getting there. Fake till you make it. Halifax. Halifax. Halifax. My mantra.
I will be emailing the winners of the silks tonight. No longer the masterbator … errr procrastinator … hehe. Later this week, keep your rss feeders tuned for I will be announcing the market bag contest 
A Canadian mom with three cute kids. This blog chronicles our lives my creative pursuits. 
if it helps any, please know that your beautiful words inspire a lot of people. I look forward to each evening when I can finally sit down and read some great blogs… it’s like a little window into someone else’s life. Hope you feel much happiness in Halifax.
So funny, but not in the ha, ha way. I sent you a card with your books that will be mailed tomorrow
, mostly covering this topic (but I wrote it before this post). It’s the psycho connection network, brought to you by Holly, or something like that.
Glad you had fun. Still miss you.
Hugs just simply hugs!
Oh and the bracelet seriously ROCKS!
I love the bracelet!
I totally understand how you feel about the blog, I feel the same sometimes & other times I just want to write, lol.
I can also understand why you haven’t been totally happy.
It’s not home…. You’re in limbo, trying to figure out your next step, well no more! You’re going home & you will finally be able to start to relax & enjoy your life again! I can’t wait to see pics when you get there!
BTW, awesome job on the weight loss!! Woo hoo!!!
And your hair, my gosh it shines like a river stone benath the water’s surface. You are so beautiful inside and out, I hope you find your happiness.
Ah yes, I think every blogger goes through those times…some of us just give up and close up shop (or go private…and then never find the time to actually write anyway…) but something tells me you will get your blogging groove back. Give yourself a break — the last thing you need is the feeling of having one more thing you *have* to do. You have so much going on right now, but life will calm down again once you are settled in your new home, and I hope hope hope you will find the happiness you so deserve there!
*hugs*
Oooh pretty pretty bracelet!!!!
I have lost the umph for blogging too.
This isn’t the first time…it comes back..
I think you always rock, no matter what!
great bracelet.
Suggestion. Seek joy not happiness. Happiness is always temporary, but joy can be sustained even through trials.
3 years! Well I’m certainly impressed. As for the creative juices running dry, you seem to be doing pretty well to me.
BEst wishes
Happiness is a good thing to desire. Of course it ebbs and flows like all of life which ensures that we appreciate it when we have it and notice when we don’t.
Hi Chelle!
It sounds like you need a break away from your blog – if it feels like work, that’s not good.
That bracelet is gorgeous!
Hang in there. If you need a break – I’ll be waiting for you when you come back.
The bracelet is lovely.
glad you had fun at the wool festival and it looks like you found a beautiful bracelet!
If you’re finding blogging is dragging you down, or not fun or whatever – just take a break! You don’t have to blog every day and we’ll all be here when you do come back! don’t be so hard on yourself or make it feel like you have to blog every day – just try and relax and I hope you’ll feel more like yourself soon!
What a beautiful bracelet!
I’m feeling the same way, as I’m sure you’ve noticed. I’m hoping the swap will help!
we all have our periods of funk — that’s when you just have to get funky —
manage the blog, don’t let the blog manage you.
does that sound like Karate Kid or what ? :p
Hey Chelle…we’re finally online today in our new house….great to be able to catch up
Blog when you want to!!!!!!!!! We love reading your comings and goings but are happy to wait a week or two for the next entry if it means you’re well and happy!!!!!!!!!
Loving the bracelet.
Totally break and blog as you feel the need to, rather than because you feel you should! I’m thinking “random” crazy thoughts, rather than “daily requirement” crazy thoughts!
Oh girl, I can totally relate.
Take your time and don’t be afraid to take time off from blogging when you need it. We’ll be here for you, regardless.
I thin we all go through stages of really wanting to blog and connect in that way, and then needing to fill ourselves with our homelives. Our family and friends and daily things. Know that many of us feel the same.
And know that many of us think of you often and wish you peaceful days, as you journey across the miles with such big steps and a big heart. You are in my thoughts and prayers!
Now snuggle up to those precious little ones for me! I need to eat them up with a spoon!
I’m glad I’m not the only one who feels that way about blogging. Things are constantly in high speed here, and by the of the day I feel exhausted too.
Love the look and glad you had fun this past weekend!
Whoa. Have I not been visiting your blog that long? Love the design change.
Have a great weekend.
Mike
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