Pics of the Day ~ Rocker Ethan & Dare Devil Becca ~
Life is in crazy turmoil time. Only a few short days to go. Not sure which way is up at the moment. I am organizing, purging, barely keeping sane and trying to parent two incredibly cute and demanding children.
I could turn the tv on and walk away. I could allow Becca to do as she wishes against my own wishes and not establish boundaries. Yet I know that once we arrive at our destination I will pay dearly for such actions. So instead I quietly remind her that I do not like to be yelled at. That once she is finished screaming she can come talk to me. I am trying not to lose my patience or my cool. I succeed some of the time, yell the other times, then curse myself for allowing an almost three year old to get the better of me.
I am mourning the loss of two great friends. Damn I am a better woman now, knowing them, spending time with them, knitting with them. Marina and I went to dinner Monday night and chatted three hours away. It was heart wrenching to say good bye. Then the very next day, I hugged Holly after an anxious day (see her blog! It was wild!) wondering how the hell I am to parent without her sound advice that ALWAYS works.
When one moves around a lot it is hard not to want to become a mountain man. Isolate oneself to protect the heart from this achey, pukey empty feeling. Yet if that was my approach, I would not have met these women, and come to adore them so.
Internets you can NEVER leave me! I should return to bed now. This post has been in my head for a few days … it is 4 am and I am sad. Hopefully my true morning will bring me around to the excitement of moving, the new adventure and my super cute kids.
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4 am? Woman, you’re insane. When do you actually leave?
Awww… sad post
good thing for the net though. We will never leave you
cute Ethan pic! He’s getting so big!
It’s never easy but so tempting to become a mountain man, I agree. Staying in touch is sometimes all we have.
Wow, Ethan is getting big!
My heart aches for you. You are doing so beautifully. Try to forgive yourself for raising your voice and feeling frazzled, it happens to the most loving and patient parents. I love reading your entries: your wonder, your gratitude, your love- they fill me with hope in the world. We are lucky to have two spirits being raised to walk this earth by a mother such as yourself.
Wish I could hug you.
I already miss you and am stalking your blog
. You must not become a hermit for my sake, because I will be so happy when you settle in and have a good life. Yep, it’s all about me.
oh chelle, it is always so hard to move away from friends, but know that they are going to miss you just as much. as the one who always stays in place, i know how hard it is to watch my friends move away all the time. luckily the internet is a wonderful way to keep in touch!
good luck with the move. moving stinks! hopefully it will all go smoothly for you.
4am! That’s some serious blogging going on! Thank goodness for the blog/internet huh? Just makes distances so much shorter. You are doing well – nobody would find it easy to move away from what is comfortable, especially with 2 young kids! I look forward to reading your entries about your new place and your discoveries & adventures there.
Well crossing fingers here that all goes well for you the next week or so. Moving well it is bot fun but I guess we do what we must do. I hope one day your travels lead you to a nice permanent place of your dreams.
Hugs!!
Aw honey…I am sad for you tooo….But happy for your new adventure and your one step closer to ‘home’…
My fingers are crossed for a safe trip and an easy move…
And don’t worry…I’ll never leave blogland.
The one thing that I have learned from moving around so much when I was younger is the fact that I now know many incredible people from all over the country. Mind you, my Christmas card list is long, but it is so worth it knowing these people.
My best friend to this day was a girl I met in Minnesota during the eighth grade. I only lived there for almost two years.
I have no doubt that you will face this new stage of your life with finesse and courage. You set an example for Becca and Evan that is giving them wings!
I mean Ethan. I always transpose those two names!
As not only the spouse of a military man, but also the daughter of a career military man, I can so identify with your feelings of moving and saying goodbye. So many friends I had to leave while growing up -and now so many friends I’ve made at this base I’ve had to say goodbye to. While it is hard, I have to remember that had it not been for the military I never would have met any of the wonderful friends I’ve made along the way. I know it’ll be hard not to see your close friends everyday, but just remember you’ll still be able to keep in touch! I’ll be saying goodbye to very dear friends of ours (we hang out together a lot) when her husband goes to Korea for a year, and she moves back to UT to be closer to family. Hang in there!
He’s starting to really look like his own man and not just that newborn-infant look. What a cutie.
you are right. goodbye’s are sooooooooooooooo hard.
This is so sad. Moving is a good thing. Think of much move you will grow in fresh soil! And you can always connect to them on-line. It is always hard to let go. It’s that whole change thing.
Having moved several times in my life, I feel your pain. There’s such mixed emotions involved with moving.
I’m glad you met these two wonderful women who have touched your life and, although you won’t have in-person contact, in this day and age you’ll still be able to keep up a relationship with them if you so choose.
I’m with you though, there’s something so powerful about internet friendships too. Granted, most of us have never met, but no matter what’s going on in life (moves, vacations, etc.) your internet friends always seem to be waiting to support you.
Don’t worry, you won’t loose this internet friend anytime soon!
Hang in there, you’re in my prayers. And, now that you’re moving, I’m hoping we’ll get to meet in-person in the near future (with Michelle too)!
The best thing about the internet is it will be with you were ever you go. You will be able to keep in touch with your friends, and meet even more great people.
Moving is really hard, an even harder with children. Hang in there.
Hope you get some sleep.
Ethan has the best smile…I bet it just melts your heart.
Oh so sad but hang in there. I used to live in Carlsbad, CA and I totally relate to the rattlesnake in the yard. Yikes. Take care while you’re in transition.
thinking of you…
You’ve got me, babe. I’m not going anywhere. Okay, actually I am but I’ll still be here.
safe journey’s. true, goodbyes are soooooooo hard. we move about every 3 years!
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