Existential Chelle
Tuesday, July 25th, 2006Pic of the Day ~ Becca’s Styling New Suit
I am feeling existential today. What is my role as a stay at home mom? Do I expect too much? Am I on the right track? What am I doing with MY life? Am I doing enough designing, creative things for my soul?
I have talked a lot today. JoAnne, my Dad and J have had to listen to my random thoughts on raising children, buying a future home, home-schooling, vaccinations…well random thoughts….everything, everywhere.
Becca had a doctor’s appointment this morning. Just the normal 2 year old check up and vaccination. Becca is healthy and well. She has grown half an inch in height and gained no weight. She was amazing when it came to the needle. We talked about it before we went and while we were there, that Becca would get a needle to make sure she did not get that kind of sick. She did not even cry!! She made an uber sad face and asked for Mommy! She held me so tight, it was amazing. J attended the appointment with me since last time we went Becca screamed the entire time we were there!
Becca’s doctor is an old school doctor, older, sweet and down to earth. I really like him and like how he interacts with Becca. He is not a “medicate her”, kind of doctor nor does he dismiss me as a crazy mom. He loves to talk to us about Canada, in fact friends of theirs invited them to a wedding in Toronto just last weekend (hehe). So I was surprised when he had a talk with us about Becca’s mature nature. He advised us to allow her to watch tv (something he & I discussed before and why I cut it out completely until recently) and take her to McDonald’s, not to eat, rather interact with other 2 year olds.
Now I know everyone’s first reaction is to be defensive and say Becca is happy and a laid back kind of kid so no worries AND I agree totally. However, to defend the Doctor (and J totally concurs with me) he knows we are here from Canada, he does not know if we are isolated and how much interaction Becca is getting with other children. I feel confident that Becca plays with, and is exposed to other children plenty for her development and age. She absolutely adores Ryan, and enjoys spending time with him. However, since the Doctor does not this it is fair to assume we may be isolated. That and I am a stay at home mom, J has his phd, and Becca lies on the floor and looks at books for an hour non-stop.
She is a laid back kid, always has been. Becca has always enjoyed choices and makes them well. She sleeps in her bed (since 16-17 months), drinks from a cup (never did the bottle thing), and now uses the potty (when naked from the waist down!) We have never pushed her to do anything. We roll with it and let Becca take the lead. I am not a crazed must learn x y z kind of mom. I do try to provide as many opportunities as I can for Becca to learn through natural experiences. I am in an unique position to do so, since I am at home and in southern California.
As a Mom, I am always questioning my position, actions, motivations, desires … guilt … However one thing I did realize today (thanks JoAnne) is that I would much rather live with guilt than apathy. I do not want Becca to be consumed by the tv and if I did not limit it, she would be. So I push forward deciding that what I am doing, how I feel in on target at the moment. Tomorrow I might change my mind!
As for designing and creativity….well I need to make more time for that, however I am really good at procrastinating and being a bum rather than utilizing my time efficiently. Nic I have been working on something for you. Trish you are not forgotten and there is something floating in my head for this place too. My pretty little ibook is just waiting for me to open her up and get working….but tonight I am going to go to bed….soon…hopefully….after reading a few more blogs….
Michelle & Kayla 
Becca is getting more and more dark with a California tan (yes of course we douse Becca with sunscreen 50 SPF like constantly but we swim and are out and about everyday!) I remember when we drove down here last August. We saw these two kids that were so tanned it was crazy! J & I both noticed them and joked that Becca would be that dark the following summer. hehe Well, little did we know our very fair baby was going to be an very active, swimming fiend that would be browning just like those two little girls.













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